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Feb 19, 2014

The Outcast by Jolina Petersheim

Release Date: June 2013
Publisher: Tyndale House
Pages: 400 pages
Source & Format: Bought; Kindle e-book
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Summary (from Goodreads)
Raised in an Old Order Mennonite community, Rachel Stoltzfus is a strong-willed single woman, content living apart from mainstream society until whispers stir the moment her belly swells with new life. Refusing to repent and name the partner in her sin, Rachel feels the wrath of the religious sect as she is shunned by those she loves most. She is eventually coerced into leaving by her brother-in-law, the bishop. But secrets run deep in this cloistered community, and the bishop is hiding some of his own, threatening his conscience and his very soul. When the life of Rachel's baby is at stake, however, choices must be made that will bring the darkness to light, forever changing the lives of those who call Copper Creek home.

Thoughts on The Outcast
I have to start by confessing that I thought this was historical fiction when I first started it. I knew that it was a retelling of The Scarlet Letter by Nathaniel Hawthorne, but I somehow didn't read the description closely enough and assumed it was historical. So, you can imagine my confusion when modern-day things were mentioned. Anyway, I soon figured out that my expectations were off and was able to really dive in to The Outcast!

I first heard about The Outcast when Juju from Tales of Whimsy wrote a love letter to the book. She concluded it by writing: "You are a masterfully crafted tale that stands tall above the rest. I will recommend you again and again." I was immediately intrigued, especially since she mentioned that it had very complex characters. Not long after Juju's post, The Outcast was a Kindle Daily Deal. You better believe I snagged it! But it wasn't until I saw another review by Brenna from I Have Lived a Thousand Lives that I realized I needed to stop wasting time and just read it already.

Rachel Stoltzfus was raised in an Old Order Mennonite community, but she never quite fit in. But things are worse after Rachel becomes pregnant out of wedlock. She refuses to name the father of her child, and her decision places her in a precarious position within the community. Rachel is trying to take care of her sick twin sister, but her brother-in-law (the bishop) finally forces her to leave. The religious leaders cannot allow her to continue to "flaunt" her sin before the congregation... and that sets everything in motion in this quiet, emotional tale.

Although I do enjoy reading Christian fiction, I almost never read any Amish fiction. It's a popular genre within Christian fiction, but I don't typically gravitate towards it when I'm choosing books. However, I loved The Scarlet Letter so that connection (in addition to the two positive recommendations I've already mentioned) really put this book on my radar. I think the setting and community worked perfectly for this story. Petersheim and her husband both have an Amish and Mennonite heritage, which is evident in this story. She's writing about a world that she's very familiar with, and that became clear to me while I was reading. The strict, religious society was the perfect backdrop for the themes tackled in The Outcast.

The characters absolutely shine in this story. They have such depth! Jealousy, shame, hypocrisy, judgment, forgiveness, pride, repentance... all of these complex emotions are on display. I really love how Petersheim wrote characters that felt so real in their humanity. The religious community (and issues/questions that are common in it) is integral in The Outcast, which is fitting since it was also so important to The Scarlet Letter. 

One of my favorite quotes from The Scarlet Letter is when Hawthorne writes:
"No man for any considerable period can wear one face to himself and another to the multitude, without finally getting bewildered as to which may be the true."
It's one of the central issues in both books - who you are versus how the world sees you. For some, it's being seen as a blameless but hiding your sin in shame. And for others, it is being judged for your mistakes by the world when you've already repented and been forgiven by God. This is one thing I loved in The Scarlet Letter, and it's portrayed so emotionally in this retelling, too.

There are two narrators in The Outcast - Rachel and a man named Amos. Now, Amos was the one part of this book that didn't work for me. He is actually deceased when the story opens and is narrating as more of an omniscient observer. To be honest, that was the one thing about this book that I frustrated me at times. I could see why Petersheim chose to share his point of view, but it was the one element that broke up the flow of the story for me.

I think the question of the baby's father is pretty evident early on in the novel, but I didn't feel like it was meant to be a huge surprise when it was revealed. Truly, this is a book where the journey is more important than the revelation. This exploration of sin, guilt, and redemption kept me captivated. If you're a reader who is drawn to really well-developed and complex characters, this is a book that you need to consider. I really look forward to more from Petersheim in the future!

So Quotable
"Judah and I had our own secret language, and sheathed in its safety, he would often confide how desperately he wanted to leave this world for the larger one beyond it. A world he had explored only through the books he would purchase at Root's Market when his father wasn't looking and read until the pages were sticky with the sweat of a thousand secret turnings."

I've Got A Gold Medal in Reading

Feb 18, 2014

Top Ten Tuesday is a weekly feature hosted by The Broke and The Bookish. Every week they post a new topic/top ten list and invite everyone to share their own answers. I'm so obsessed with lists - so it makes perfect sense that I'd love this feature!

Top Ten Reasons I Love Being A Reader

1. I can go anywhere in the pages of a book.
Seriously, in the past few weeks I've been to: apartheid South Africa, modern-day New York City, two dystopian versions of the future, Russia during World War II, 1950s New Orleans, and a magical version of lake community in Georgia. There's nothing like traveling through the pages of a good book!

2. Reading has taught me how to put myself in someone else's shoes.
I really love books with well-developed characters. As I've said before, I don't need to like the character to be invested in their story. I love that books have helped me learn to empathize with others. There's something to be said about a hobby that can help you learn to be a better person.

3. Reading is good for my brain and makes me smarter.
There are a million studies that show books are good brain food. Whether it's having a better vocabulary or stronger writing skills, there's no doubt that there are so many benefits to reading. I always did really well in school, and I know that a part of that came from my love for reading. It helped me love learning!

4. It gives me an outlet when I'm stressed out.
Sometimes it's nice to turn on the TV when I'm tired or stressed... and other times I just want to lose myself in another world. Being able to stop and immerse myself in a fictional world can help when I'm overwhelmed by reality. Decompressing with a good book can be such a relief!

5. Books can have led to some of my favorite real-life conversations.
One of my favorite moments in real life is when I find out that someone else is a big reader. It creates an immediate connection and gives you so much to talk about as you're getting to know someone. I also have had some of the best conversations with friends involving books. Whether it's fangirling over a new series or pushing an old favorite, there's nothing like bookish chats!

6. One of the best activities in the world: shopping for books.
I'm not a huge shopper. I enjoy buying things like nail polish or movies, but I've never been one to spend hours at the mall. Trying on clothes? Ugh, the worst. I love cute clothes, but I hate the experience of buying them. But shopping for books? It's one of my favorites! I could spend hours in the bookstore. I always grab a huge pile, sit down at a table and then start slowly narrowing it down.

7. It's a hobby that I can take anywhere.
Scrapbooking, crafting, cooking, fishing, running, collecting, golfing... many hobbies have to be done in specific places. One great thing about reading is that you can do it almost anywhere and take it with you wherever you go. Standing in line at the grocery store? Read on your phone! Headed to the beach? Don't forget to pack some books.

8. I automatically have something to decorate with in my house.
I might buy a few too many books, but they do look awfully good in my house. We have big bookshelves in my husband's office with the majority on my books on them, but I also love having books scattered all over my house. In my kitchen, on my coffee table, in the guest bedroom... books have taken over my house!

9. I'll never run out of things to read.
Granted, this is also stressful (think of how many things I'll never have time to read!), but we're going to be positive on this list. I do love that there will always be new books, new authors, new worlds and new characters to fall in love with as a reader. There's no reading limit - no end to what's left to discover. 

10. The best way to end the day? Reading in the bath.
Listen, I basically love taking baths. I'll toss in a LUSH Cosmetics bath melt, grab a nice cold Diet Coke, hop in with my latest read and then I'm pretty much in heaven. I think the bath and book combination is always the right answer. Stressful day at work? Yep. Not feeling good? Duh. In a really great mood? Still works. My second favorite place to read is in the bath!

A Single Choice Changes Everything

Feb 17, 2014

Allegiant by Veronica Roth

Release Date: October 2013
Publisher: HarperCollins | Katherine Tegen Books
Pages: 526 pages
Source & Format: Gifted; Hardcover
Series: Divergent #3
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Summary (from Goodreads)
What if your whole world was a lie?
What is a single revelation - like a single choice - changed everything?
What if love and loyalty made you do things you never expected?

The explosive conclusion to Veronica Roth's #1 New York Times bestselling Divergent trilogy reveals the secrets of the dystopian world that has captivated millions of readers in Divergent and Insurgent.

Thoughts on Allegiant
Before I started Allegiant, I knew how it was going to end. Yep, that's right. The big, shocking ending was spoiled for me in the comments of a picture of Veronica Roth that was posted on Instagram. FAIL. I mean, I knew that I couldn't really trust the Internet... but still! And on release day, no less.

Anyway, I start with that little tidbit because it's part of the reason I waited so long to finally read this one. It wasn't that I disliked what I'd found out about the ending - I just no longer felt that sense of urgency or anticipation where you just can't wait to pick up a book and find out what happens next. I decided to wait until some time had passed and all kerfluffle finally calmed down. Talk about causing a stir! This book certainly created a ruckus when it was released, and I wanted to be able to read it when everyone's reactions weren't quite so fresh in my mind.

When I felt like I had waited long enough, I decided to re-read Divergent and Insurgent first. I love re-reading, and I find it really helpful and enjoyable to do so when it's a series. Going back to the first two books helped me remember what I liked about these books and characters, and it helped created a little more excitement in me before picking this one up.

I'm not going to spoil the ending, but I do want to say this one thing to everyone that was so frustrated or angry about it: re-reading the first two books knowing how it ended made it SO OBVIOUS to me that this series was always going to go that direction. I started picking up on so many clues that I'd missed the first time around - themes and conversations that repeatedly hinted at what was to come. Roth's decision may have been controversial, but I really don't think it came out of left field. Re-reading showed me that she had been laying the foundation for that moment, that decision, from the very beginning of her story.

So, I say that because it's crucial to how I felt about the ending to this series: I didn't mind it. In fact, I thought it made total sense. I may have been sad or selfishly wanted it to go another way, but I also can't deny that it worked for me. Life doesn't always happen the way you want it to, and I respect Roth for telling the story that she'd always planned (even if it wasn't received well).

All that being said - I found other aspects of Allegiant to be a little disappointing. There is a bit of a disconnect in this one for me overall. Four gets his own POV in the narrative, but it wasn't that distinguishable from Tris's POV. I kept flipping back to the beginning of a chapter because I couldn't tell who was narrating. I enjoyed some of the things I learned about Four in this book, but I wish there had been more of a difference in the way his chapters were written. His voice never seemed like it was truly his own.

I also thought the pacing was off. There is a lot of info dumping in this conclusion, which is a really unfortunate time for a reader to get so much new information. I felt a bit overwhelmed by just how much I was being told, but I think that may have mirrored the characters' feelings (so perhaps it was a bit intentional). Because of that, it took me quite a while to really feel engaged in this story. I know Tris and Four were learning so much about the life and world they'd always known, but it felt like such a shift from the previous books.

I felt disconnected from the story and characters for much of this book, which is why I don't think this ending is entirely satisfying. It's not so much about the "thing" that happened as it is all the other stuff leading up to that moment. I still liked Allegiant at the end of the day, and I'm really so glad that I re-read Divergent and Insurgent first. I think I had a more positive experience with this book because of it. However, I can understand why this book has left some readers wanting. I'll be more cautious in recommending in this series in the future, but I am still glad I spent the time reading it.

So Quotable
"I fell in love with him. But I don't just stay with him by default as if there's no one else available to me. I stay with him because I choose to, every day that I wake up, every day that we fight or lie to each other or disappoint each other. I choose him over and over again, and he chooses me."

Consider This Classic: Kelly Recommends

Feb 13, 2014

Consider This Classic is a monthly feature where bloggers highlight and recommend their favorite classic. They'll tell you when they first read it, why they love it and where to go from there. If you'd like to participate in Consider This Classic, click here to sign up.

This month, I have Kelly from Effortlessly Reading here sharing one of her favorite classic. Kelly very kindly responded to my tweet asking for someone to highlight a book this month. I only discovered her blog recently, and I've really enjoyed everything I've read so far. I'm thrilled to share her recommendation today!


Wuthering Heights by Emily Brontë

Publication Date: 1847
Originally Published In: United Kingdom
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Summary (from Goodreads)
Wuthering Heights - Emily Brontë's only novel - remains one of literature's most disturbing explorations into the dark side of romantic passion.

An unpolished and devastating epic of childhood playmates who grow into soul mates, Wuthering Heights revolves around the willfully childish Catherine and the dark Heathcliff, who, in the words of Charlotte Brontë, "exemplifies the effects which a life of continued injustice and hard usage may produce on a naturally perverse, vindictive, and inexorable disposition." Heathcliff and Cathy believe they're destinies to love each other forever. But when cruelty and snobbery separate them, their untamed emotions literally consume them.

Set amid the wild and stormy Yorkshire moors, Wuthering Heights is widely regarded as the most original tale of thwarted desire and heartbreak in the English language.


I was forced to read Wuthering Heights for my sophomore English class in high school. Honestly, when it was first assigned to my class and I got the book in my hands, I HATED it. The book smelled (it was probably used for 15+ years, yes my high school is older than that), there was no cover (it's a school edition so I just had a HUGE light blue hardback in my hands), and most of all, it was a classic. My teacher promised our class that we'd LOVE it, but of course I was automatically suspicious (let's face it, almost every single English teacher says that in high school and 99% of the time, that doesn't happen). To my surprise, I absolutely LOVED Wuthering Heights - I read the entire book in 3 days when I was supposed to read it for two weeks. Most of all, the entire class loved Wuthering Heights too, even the ones that don't read the assigned books at all. Wuthering Heights may have a very slow beginning, but it's worth trudging through to get to the amazing middle and end.


Okay, I know a majority of people hate on the book because of its dreadful character, but for me, the dreadful characters is a part of the charm! Wuthering Heights is a story of horrible people doing horrible things and how love ultimately influences their decisions. The book is like a roller coaster - you know you're not supposed to like it, but at the same time, you just can't look away.


I'd love to cheat and name a Wuthering Heights retelling, but nah, I'm not going to do that. Hmm... I'll say Wuthering Heights is similar to Slammed by Collen Hoover - you're watching the characters go through something that you just don't agree with or like, but at the same time, you just can't look away.

Catch a Serious Case of Swoon

Feb 11, 2014

Top Ten Tuesday is a weekly feature hosted by The Broke and The Bookish. Every week they post a new topic/top ten list and invite everyone to share their own answers. I'm so obsessed with lists - so it makes perfect sense that I'd love this feature!

Top Ten Books That Will Make You Swoon

"I love you the way a drowning man loves air. 
And it would destroy me to have you just a little."
1. The Crown of Embers by Rae Carson

"It was like coming home or being born or suddenly finding
an entire half of herself that had been missing."
2. Crown of Midnight by Sarah J. Maas

"I want all of you. I want you inside and out
and catching your breath and aching for me like I ache for you."
3. Unravel Me by Tahereh Mafi

"If you weren't driving, I'd kiss you senseless," I tell him.
He swerves to the side of the road and stops the car abruptly.
"Not driving any more."
4. Jellicoe Road by Melina Marchetta

"I can't give you the world, Rachel, but I'll give you all I've got."
5. Crash Into You by Katie McGarry

"As long as we're together, that's how we'll be.
No trembling. No faltering. We're unstoppable."
6. The Fiery Heart by Richelle Mead

"I think I realized that I would rather die because
I betrayed them than live because I betrayed you."
7. Scarlet by Marissa Meyer

"And if I'm the stars, Cricket Bell is entire galaxies."
8. Lola & The Boy Next Door by Stephanie Perkins

"She wanted to make an honest women of his chin.
She wanted to lock it down."
9. Fangirl by Rainbow Rowell

"I know at that moment what he's given me and it's not a chair.
It's an invitation, a welcome, the knowledge that I am accepted here.
He hasn't given me a place to sit. He's given me a place to belong."
10. The Sea of Tranquility by Katja Millay
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